life...the way it is.

its been quite sometime since i updated dis thing...
im just really lazy and tired to do so..

this past weeks has been simple for me...
go to work...come back home
and thats the cycle of my life..

of course once in awhile i will hang out wif my frens and family...
but somehow working jus seem to take your social life ti quite a minimum extent..

so i have received my results like weeks ago...
i passed all my subjects although it was a minimum pass..
but i am glad cos it was really hard for me to pass in jc...so i am thankful that i did pass my A levels..
so i applied to the unis jus to see if there is any chance i could go to a uni and applied to nie too...
it will be really cool for me to be a teacher cos that was one of my earliest aspirations as far as i could remember....

i have been working for three months now... which really seem like a long time...
work is okay...not many ups but not many downs either...

so in all, my life right now is still in balance and i have absolutely no idea wats the next step..
so i guess i will take it slow...one step at a time and meanwhile enjoy life with the people that i love...


i wish theres a sign to show me the way.....

vday......

well...well...yest was valentine's day and gosh was it sickening....
on the way home frm suntec saw so MANY couples hoding hands, with flowers...
laughing with each other....dining....
chocolates stores has long queue of men buying goodies for their beloved...
and mrt was packed like never before with couples arranging to meet each other...

not that im jealous mind you...but seriously its only this one stupid day....
and trust me, 2 weeks later all this lovey dovey stuff is going to turn sour...
love is not jus about one day...
its about a lifetime...
we should be sweet to each other every day to build up that togetherness...
not on jus one particular day where you are all abt sweetness, love and romance...
romance is something to be felt every day....

ok since when am i such an angst on love....hahah
dun even haf experience on romance and want to talk alot huh....
aahahahaha
anyway let them enjoy la ah...
even if its for one day....

oh and im meeting fiza to go watch movie!!
hahha..da lame tk jumpe...
so much i want to ask...

BORED

its been a while since i update....
hahha...
busy and tired wif work..
anyway, met up wif fiza, ryan, mj and hafidz at simpang bedok...
it was nice meeting them...and kind of glad that im not the only one feeling dat way abt life..
hahaah...

k.. nothing else to write...
see...my life is boring....

the week at a glance

this whole week has been an average week...except for fri nite...
met up with my best counterpart, fizah...
hahahah..

it was nice meeting her after so long...
talked abt stuff from a to z and 1 to infinity...
so basically we talked alot and about anything, which is wat i always love abt us...hahha
talk and talk until both of us got thirsty...
but u noe wat... it was so worth it!

so next fri we meeting again...
last fri was oreo cheesecake..
this fri is sushi session pulak...hahaha

QUOTES FOR THE WEEK

before that....
Selamat maal hijrah, 1429...

the best way to make your

dreams come true is to wake up

PAUL VALERY

failure is when a man who has

blundered but is not able to cash in on the experience

ELBERT HUBBARD

procrastination is the thief of time

ANONYMOUS

our greatest glory is not in never falling

but in rising every time we fall

CONFUCIUS

always do what you are afraid to do

WALDO EMERSON

you must be the change you want to see in the world

GANDHI

and a quote which can be rather uninspirational...hahahha

if at first you dont succeed, try, try again

then quit

theres no use being a damn fool about it

WC FIELDS

START OF A NEW YEAR...

it has been a week into the year of 2008...
and things hasnt been very good....
still this doesnt mean that we should give up...
there is still a long way to 2009......

i was looking at a pic of an individual wearing the grad gown and the cap...
and as i was looking at it, i felt that i really want to be that person wearing the gown and cap...
i want to do it not only for my mum but also for myself...
i know i have faltered alot in the past 2 years...
but i have to go on and srtive for more and work harder if thats wat i really want to achieve...
i want to be able to do something meaningful with my life that i can be satisfied with...
its going to be one long hard road....
who says its ever going to be easy...
so i hope that this year.... i will keep focused on my goals and not get swayed by other things easily..
i want all my family and frens to be happy and that 2008 will be a great year...
and the start of something new for me...

whatever is going to happen... i will accept it as it is....
and try to move on and work hard...

I CAN DO IT!

2008 WILL BE MY YEAR!

just thoughts

well.... this week has been... how shall i say it...

tiring?...exciting?hectic?

i dun noe how to describe it but its a compilation of all the above description...

anyway starting working at kak leha's office...

helping in data entry of accounts and creating payment and repairing whatever mistakes...

it was ok...

not that hard...

but all the numbers and addresses, invoices and whatnots can be very confusing...

this week...have been going to work with kak leha...

naik kereta so i was always early for work...

but wen its time to go home....thats where i get really pissed off...

so many people!! and i waited for an HOUR for 518!...

wen the bus datang.. penuh like hell...

so now wen i go home i dun bother to wait...

jus take the mrt...

itupun sesak jugak but atleast i get home faster...

one thing i realised is that working life is boring and scary...

boring in a way that you have to do the work

no excuses can be given unlike school...

and going to office everyday jus seem so lifeless unlike school...

just cannot pin point the diff but somehow you will feel the change...

its scary cos well wen you make mistakes.. its not like in school where the teachers say its alright and its a learning process...

you can always try again next time...

but at work... wen you do wrong... you feel guilty

and wen you do wrong at work it may affect others alot

and its no longer jus a learning process...

hahhaha...gosh i have only started a few days n there is so much i have realised and learned...

on the other hand.. the money that comes after all this is worth the pain....

school is starting soon and its really weird not going to school or buying sch stuffs..

i guess there is no longer anything concrete to hold onto...

unlike years ago where you know end of dec its time to go back to school and the normal routine...

but its not like that anymore...

life changes is a pain but what the heck...we all need it..

cos if there is no changes..there is no life....

GIRLS OUTING 22 Dec 2007

Budak - budak takde keje..hahaha

Atika, effa, dilah, fiz

Aidil Adha 2007

Selamat Hari Aidil Adha!

its has been awhile since we took photos...

so..it seems an appropriate ocassion for some camwhoring...

some people were misssing from the pics tho.....

They do wonders......

Boys to men.... Men to boys..

Kumpulan tua kutuk..hahahhaha

Angels....

Mummy and naqibah

the cousins...

kumpulan panca si dara tua....

the old gals...A tribute to our dearest auntie...Mummy Zenut Nesa

;)

there is only one sentence to describe yesterday..............

A FUN, RELAXING AND SECRETS REVEALING DAY!

hahahaha...dilah should know...

I.T shoppin

My new digital organiser

Kakak's new phone

today me and sis went IT shopping...




sis bought a new cool phone. KU990...




and for my birthday she bought me a digital organizer...




initially i had wanted a new phone but then if the features are still the same as my old phone...might as well i get the organizer...

Im really glad we talked it out and that we are cool now...

but i do apologise once again for making you feel dat way...

Happy birthday to me

today..im officially 18...

gosh... im all grown up...

important decisions to be made by myself...

taking responsibility for all my decisions and doings...

life is going to get complicated

but that is not going to stop me from living my life...

to those who have wished me...thank you very much!



to you who matters.... talk it out...dun keep me in suspense...

welcome home

sis just got back from phuket dis evening...

she kind of look good...must be the tan...hahah

oh and she got kind me dis watch cum bracelet which i so so so LOVE!!!!

hahahah..yeah finally got this kind of bracelet......

fuh...excited nk pakai...hahahah

bhaiyya ki shaadi

The newly weds

30 Nov 2007 --> Nikah

02 Dec 2007 -- Sanding

the bride, my sis in law.... the groom, my bro all ready to go pick up the bride...

wen its all over we smile!...hes a married man!

tengah stress nak nikah...hahahahah

The cake..yummy....

The things that were to be brought to the girl's side

Abg getting ready for the nikah...

these are some of the pics...

will update again as soon as i get hold of them...

and i still haven get the prom pics...

ahahah...so later will do it once i get it...

anyway..sis is off to phuket for a few days...

bro jus left for honeymoon yesterday to krabi...

so im the only child for now...

ahahah

kind of boring cos no one to argue or kid around with...

worse of all.... have to do the household chores myself.... haiya...

IT HAS ENDED!!!

YAY!!! Now i can really enjoy myself....
so many things to do.. so little time!!
i wanna watch lots of movies!! so many of them...
and i still haven got anything to wear for prom...
wat a headache...

and fats gone for a few days...
she will obviously enjoy herself...
so cool to go there...
wish i could go too...hahahaha

i dun want it to change....

one more paper to the end of 'A' Levels!

WOHOO!!!

approx 9 days to abang's wedding....

I miss us...

split second

every morning.... when you wake up.. there is this split second where everything seems normal..
then reality starts to sink it..
even though its jus for a split second...it feels so real..
it act as a booster to get out of the bed and carry on with our daily life..

yet this morning i chose to stay in bed...
thinking.....
thinking whether wateva i haf done is enough or maybe i could do more but jus couldnt find the strength to do so....
nevertheless, i know i have given my best shot and wats to come will come...
theres nothing i can do to stop it....

so the next time wen you wake up...
do enjoy that split second where everything seems normal....

life? not ready....

Life is full of uncertainties..

its was so much easier in the past...

from pri to sec then either go poly or jc...

after that... is where reality starts to set in...

a levels is ending soon and yet i really wish i could start all over again...

i dun tink i am ready to face the challenges of the real world...

im scared, worried that i may not have a place in this world...

i dunno wat to do wif my life...

im not sure that i can get the results i hoped for..

its jus too painful to fail..

yet again it might jus be the thing to encourage me or on a darker side...discourage me..

i really dun want to grow up...

why cant we stay the way we are...

i dun tink im ready...

dunno why but recently i have felt more alone than ever..

there are people around me but they dun seem to notice me...

not that im craving the attention...

but the feelings of being somebody's friend is diminishing..

probably its jus a very stressing period and im way overreacting...

but who knows...

i really wish that i can talk to someone and help me through this...

but i believe people are all busy with their own probs...

besides this might jus be a phase in life then probably only me can go through it and survive...

im trying not too tink so much and jus go wif the flow.. but its easier said than done..

i dun want to disappoint mum...

for now.. i tink i should jus enjoy the wonders of life that it brings along besides the pain...

come nov 22.......

'A' Levels is ending in a few weeks time...cant believe but am glad dat its ending...
im not so confident regarding the results tho...
its kind of sad that after almost 12 years of education, it may not end well...
but i only have myself to blame and no one else..
but again, its too late to do anything more...
i did what i could and leave the rest to fate...

So.... when nov 22 comes i am so going to enjoy myself!
watch movies, spend my time on the computer....
go shopping and prepare for bro's wedding..
man..im so EXCITED!
hahaha...
but mum wants me to find work and i have no idea what to do...
shitlah... y must i work?? hahaha...
List of things to do: (rough guide)
1) Watch lots of movies
2) Stay up late
3) Rent vcds
4) Shopping for prom
5)Kemas bilik and boxes and all other stuff
6) Find work... haiyo...............

Meantime, still need to study...its not over yet..................

SAD

i feel so stupid...
so many careless mistakes and wrong answers
wat the heck was i thinking??
why cant i be smart!
its so frustrating...
STUPID CHEM PAPER!!
argh!!
i am really really sad.......... ;(