life? not ready....

Life is full of uncertainties..

its was so much easier in the past...

from pri to sec then either go poly or jc...

after that... is where reality starts to set in...

a levels is ending soon and yet i really wish i could start all over again...

i dun tink i am ready to face the challenges of the real world...

im scared, worried that i may not have a place in this world...

i dunno wat to do wif my life...

im not sure that i can get the results i hoped for..

its jus too painful to fail..

yet again it might jus be the thing to encourage me or on a darker side...discourage me..

i really dun want to grow up...

why cant we stay the way we are...

i dun tink im ready...

dunno why but recently i have felt more alone than ever..

there are people around me but they dun seem to notice me...

not that im craving the attention...

but the feelings of being somebody's friend is diminishing..

probably its jus a very stressing period and im way overreacting...

but who knows...

i really wish that i can talk to someone and help me through this...

but i believe people are all busy with their own probs...

besides this might jus be a phase in life then probably only me can go through it and survive...

im trying not too tink so much and jus go wif the flow.. but its easier said than done..

i dun want to disappoint mum...

for now.. i tink i should jus enjoy the wonders of life that it brings along besides the pain...

come nov 22.......