life = bitch?

life can be a bitch...
when you are feeling good..it will throw in something to dampen your spirit..
when you are feeling down..it will throw in something to boost your spirit

because of you, i have to be the good one..
to be on her good side so as not to upset her further
when she is stress about you, the rest of us gets her anger too
sometime i feel like im not 17...
i am suppose to be the teenage... rebelling against parents becos that is the phase of life..
but no..u are the one rebelling and i have to be the one correcting your mistakes
i cant even enjoy a good day out wif my frens for fear that she will be upset
i always have to think about you and her before i can do anything
i want to go out too
i want to spand my time with my frens
i want to go out somewhere far and be home late

but the truth is i am scared..
scared that i will disappoint her like you did
i dont want her to treat me like the way she did u...
thats why i never treat her the way you did

sometimes i wonder whether whatever you are doing is on purpose
to test the limit of her patience
i dont know...

im tired...very very tired...of the shit that is going on..
i jus wish things will go back to normal