happy birthday...

9th december 1989..
that was the day i was born...
today marks the 17th year i have lived in this world..

the night before, we had this sleepover thingy...
both of us on the floor using my blanket as bed..
after a few mins..both of us cant sleep cos it was uncomfortable..
finally we decided to return to our lovely beds and slept soundly after that..

the next morning, i woke up to a macdonald's breakfast bought by my sis..
thanks kak...so much..
we ate and talked and it felt good...
not exactly the birthday i had in mind but it was so much better..

as i sat there eating, i thought about the past 16 years of my life..
i admit that i have done a lot of mistakes
i was happy.. and at times sad too..
but i have never regretted any of my decisions...

but on this day..i am deeply upset..
the person who brought me into this world had not talked to me...
not even wishing me...
i am glad for my sister because she gave me the strength to face this..
when your loved ones do not talked to you..it hurts badly..
its so painful that you wished someone would just take you away so that you dont have to face it...

so..just wanna wish myself
a happy 17th birtday....

shes nt talking

shes not talking to me..
not even a single word...
i dread going home...
just because of a stupid argument...
i hate myself...

even if she say something..
it will be because its neccessary to do so...
she will even look at me in the eye..
am i so detestable?
i really hate myself...

service learning

it has been a LONG LONG time since i blog..
well its because there is nothing much going on in my life rite now..
when there is no sch...it sucks...
bt when there is sch...it sucks too..
so wat the heck..

anyway, i had to do this service learning thingy for two days..
went to this place called sunbeam at choa chu kang..
damn far...woke up quite early for that 2 days...
first day was late cos fizah was late...
ahahahaha..bangun lambat itupun dikejut by me...hahaha
so yeah was damn late...
but the second day was damn early...
to pay back for the day we were late....

im lazy to tell the whole story but i will jus write what i felt doing the whole thing...
when i first reach there, i expected the kids to be upper primary..
but no...there were lower primary and some are not even in primary sch...
so when i saw them...i was like...damn shit..small kids...OMG...
not dat i dun like kids, mind u...
but i do not really know how to mingle with them much...
sometimes i tink that kids do not like me..
im nt sure why myself..hahaha

so while trying to gather them around..it was hard..
they didnt listen..especially to me ah...
so i was like..oh man...this kids hate me..
kind of confirmed my suspicions...
bt as the day got on... i guess i wasnt that bad with kids...
some of them lah...
rani was the cutest there..shes small and sweet..
played around with her..
and there were little devils too...
like ming zheng...the hellboy...hahahaha
there was xavier and lay teng and elvin...
it was fun hanging out with them...at times..
but they can be a real headache...well kids generally are a headache...hahaha

but i realise that all these kids want is someone to be them for them...
to hold their hands and guide them..
when lay teng was with me...she kept holding my hand close to her..
when she sat on my lap...she makes sure that shes holding my hand...
on the last day, when we were going home.. ming zheng came up to me and hug me...
and asked whether we are coming tmr..
i said no... and it broke my heart cos like they were expecting us to come again...
its just so sad...felt like crying but tahan ah... paisey sey kalau org nampak..ahahahah
and there was yi bin.. mark's boy...
hes damn cute..
and i finally got to carry him...
even though it was for awhile but it was nice dat he allowed me to carry him
cos he only liked mark...hahaaha

so yeah.. it was a great experience...
to really be with these kids..
have another event coming up..
hope that it will be a success as well..

*adios*

mistakes

sometimes, the reason we argue is not even because of me...
it all about her..
yeah, i know shes made some mistakes..
i know u want to talk..
but wat can i do...
i cannot give u anything..not even an assurance..
because the truth is my life is not about solving other's people problem...

for goodness sake im going to be 17..
im suppose to enjoy life right...not come up with something to solve problems
yeah im mature now..at 17 i should be learning about life mistakes..
but why, why does she worry that i will make that same mistakes..
i learnt from her mistakes..
i have seen what those mistakes have done...

everyday, i promise myself taht i will never be like her...
never hurt the ones i love..
maybe dats y i feel different...

*adios*

SOMEBODY SAVE ME!

today, in the morning went out to do some math hwk..
then went to lib to get some books...
then met up wif sis and we jalan2 abit..gt some vcds and went home
at night went jogging and watched 2 movies...

gosh..my sentence are so boring..
i feel like im writing a primary school compo..
so yeah..basically..im VERY bored...
so bored that i sometimes i cant sleep..
probably due to lack of activities...
haiz....i tink school isnt such a bad idea after all....
maybe the fun part and ur friends are the best part of school..
acadmically...i prefer to skip it hahaha...

ok...i tink im talking crap...cos im bored...
hmm...and one tree hill is running out of videos..
so i dun frequent utube as much...
OH! SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!

*adios*

yesterday..was another fulfilled day...

there was only one word to describe yesterday: FUN!
hahahaha..met up wif fizah and adilah...
went to ramenten and had lunch..
dilah and fizah kind of ordered to much sushi and we also had the set meal...
so was very very kenyang...

then jalan2 at junction 8.
around 6 plus we went home...
i took the bus cos it leads straight to the bus stop near home...
although the journey was long.. bt i kind of like riding the bus...
boleh khayal...
hahaha
fiz hates riding buses..
which is a bit weird...so she took the mrt home...
hahahah...

rite now im bored...
so i guess utube will be my destination!

*adios*

update again...

well...its been awhile since i updated...
not that i didnt want..mind you...
but i had nothing to talk abt..
life has been boring enough and i didnt want to put the boring details in here...
all i have done this week is doing the interact board..and slacking round at any fast food restaurant with fizah..
now that is fun cause we talked crap and laugh and all..hahaha

but then when i get home..i got bored and all i ever do now is go to utube watch anything that is worth watching...
mostly is my favourite drama ONE TREE HILL..
hahaha..
man..chad micheal murray is DAMN HOT!! ahahaha
haiz...its just so nice to feast your eyes on him...
well there is this one episode where there is a quote and i really2 like it..
Quote:

at this moment, there are six million, four hundred and seventy million,

eight hundred and eighteen thousand,six hundred and seventy one people in the world.

some are running scared.

some are coming home.

some tell lies to make it through the day.

others are just now facing the truth.

some are evil men, at war with good.

and some are good, struggling with evil.

six billion people in the world.

six billion souls.

but sometimes,

all you need is one.

this is a nice quote..
and i kind of believe in it..
no matter what happens
no matter what people do or say to you..
what we need is just someone who listens and give a shoulder for us to cry on..
there are others who are lucky..they have got more than 1 person for them to depend on..
i believe im lucky...cause i have the greatest family and friends in the world..
im really proud to have them in my life..
there are times when i wish these same people will leave me alone..
but i know if that were to happen, i dont think i can survive..
i am what i am because of the people around me..
life is never perfect and it will never be...
but i know that come what may..there will always be people to support me..
and i thank these very souls who have been there for me..
thank u soo much..

wah..i suddenly feel very philosophical...
hahahaa...

*adios*

%^%&%$@#%&

ok...today is going to be a f***ed up day....

OP..HAIYO..

today was the day...
the day for OP...
went to sch at 10...
met with the rest and we rehearsed here and there..
then waited until 3 for our turn which was freaking long..
then our presentation..
for me the presentation was ok...
then came the Q n A and that destryed everything..

re - enactment:

Examiner 1: ok, fadhilah...wat can u do to encourage these people to go for the seminars?

Me: umm... (stood there like an idiot for 2 mins)..sorry..umm

Examiner 2: wat other measures that can u take?

Me:(in my head) shit.. wat a qn..coudnt she ask smthg else..f***...wat to say?! wats dat thing we say wen people get smthg?? damn wat it is???(out loud) oh.. to encourage people they will get smthg if they come, like free sample of cloth bags

Examiner 1: ok, why then pri 1, i mean they are young...

Me: well, singapore's education is fast paced.. at pri 1 they are learning eng, math and science..so tehy also learn abt the 3Rs. Reduce, Reuse and Recycle.. so this can be incorporated by making it simple enough for them to understand..

Examiner 1: Ok.. next younquan...

GONE!!! GG!!

I totally screwed up my Q n A...

like shit ah...

haiz.. so disappointed...

then to celebrate our post pw..

the whole grp went to watch movie..

so difficult to choose the movie...

grudge 2 and the guardian - i watched..

daph wanted to watch a gd year..

aruna and yq wanted to watch the covenant

wilbur nt even sure wanted to watch any movies...

tossed a coin and aruna won...

so covenant it is...

den wilbur said watching it tmrw...

so he didnt want to go wif us...

after much arguing..

we finally.. i really mean finally.. we decided to watch step up...

the movie was quite nice actually... nice dance move...

really enjoyed it...

to whoever who likes to watch dance movie..better catch this one!

we walked around and finally went home..

so tired...tmrw gonna be busy helping mum...

mak is coming over..

yeah!

now im feeling better..

oh well.. op is over...watever happen has happened...

never cry over spilled milk...

*adios*

Ok!

for the start of the week.. it was actually going great..
met fizah and we hang out together...
it was nice after wat happened yesternight...
felt like everything back to ok again...
then we had trouble trying to figure out wat movie to watch..

in the end we watched grudge 2..
which i haf to say was a waste of time...
it was kind of complicated and i only realise what the whole movie was about in the end..
and the scary part is jus shocking...not fun at all... didnt really scared me...
haiyo..they should come up with a better movie...

gt to do pw tmrw...kind of lazy but no choice...
hahah
hope you people haf fun jalan raye bsok...

*adios*

sad day...

Everything was ok....
until i pisses someone off..
actually, it was never my intention..
i was upset as well...
i mean i didnt have a choice...
if i didnt go, i will be left behind and to change the date to wed, means that i have only that wed to practice...
which is ridiculous since i kinda sucked...

bt the treatment that i got was painful..
i understand her anger...disappoinment..but i felt those too...
she could have said smthg consoling while i was apologising profusely...
but no...msg ignored..
but there was a msg...which i felt was nice of her.. but still i could sense her dissatisfaction..
it always make me feel im always the one in the wrong..
what now?
haiz....
i hope things will be alrite..
dun becos of small issues..things change..
i hate to argue with her..
i really do..

*hepless*

UPdate!

Helloooo!!!!hahaha..its been a while since i updated this thing...
wait... its been a loooonnnggg time...hahaa..maklumlah hari raya...so busy keluar...
well things have been okay.. i guess.. nothing that have gotten me so upset or happy...
but things are okay...jus finished a level mt paper last friday..
its was ok i guess.. but then i dont want to put too much high hopes
becos life has a way of surprising you...

den today, in late morning went to sofi's house to jalan raye..t
here were only 3 of us... fiza,sofi and me..pathetic? ya.. a bit...
hahahah after that we went to ms rafidah's house..
it was nice... i have always loved her house...so we ate and talked and laughed...
it was like old times...den to accompany dear fizah..
we took taxi and send her to her aunt's house before we stopped at bedok interchange..
well, actually she sent us since she paid for the ride...hahahaha
and fiz... i had to tambah only 10 cents...kwangz....

and now im waiting for some family members to come...
which is starting to piss me off...telefon siang2 pastu ckp nk datang
but tk sampai2...sometimes i feel like raye ni is kind of a waste of time...
i mean raye is wen kite bermaafan but there will always be people who piss u off and make u angry...
so in the end actually..u minta maaf and then make mistakes..so as u can see..its neverending..
kk.. now i gtg.. dorang da sampai..
and yeah.. fiz..i updated! :)

*adios*

sundaaayyyy...

today woke up at 12..hahaha damn late ah...
slept at 2 last nite finishing the sue walker book...it was very good story..and i kind of suspected that it might be him committing the murders..

so yeah woke and clean the house a bit..
then went to do my i and r....
at 2 plus got ready to mee daph, aruna,wilbur and yongquan for pw...
after being given directions to wilbur's house..left at 3 plus...

i thought i was lost at first but realise that i was on the right track...
reaching nearer to his house, gave him a call and he met me and daph..yq was already there...
then we talked abit and a while later aruna came...
we did a bit of pw and then we side tracked..
invaded wilbur's privacy by going through his pics at friendster and making fun of him...hahahaha
he was trying to make us stop but obviously we didnt..
then we did the same thing to yq...
finally we stopped and got back to pw...

then after summarising and sending it to yq..
aruna and yq played games...
i was jus looking at them playing...
daph was rummaging thru wilbur's stuff and wilbur was practically shouting for her to stop...
hahahah..damn noisy those two...
so yeah that went on till 6 plus..then me and yq went home while daph and aruna stayed back to continue playing...

i was practically rushing home to buke and mum wasnt back yet...
gi geylang beli baju dad and brother...
then after we prayed and now here im blogging...
oh yeah got a pretty bad news...
sis.mum and my baju raye maseh blum siap...hahaha
wat the hell.. tues dah nk raye and she still haven complete...HEGE SEY!!!
she is mum's fren so mum tak bleh ckp pape..
so lets jus wait and see whether baju siap by tmr...if not tak raye lah agaknye...hahahah

*adios*

my day..

we are FINALLY done with written report..
one headache gone..
but now is the pressure on OP...
well, my group can make it...
i believe in my group.. YEAH!!

..

so...today was fairly an ok day..

in the morning we were like rushing to print our wr and turning the whole report in for plagirism...

and then we are DONE...

after that we had no lessons throughout the day..

some teachers were busy with the j2s farewell assembly...

gosh! im gonna miss them...

wan,hafizah,eugene,darren,sammi and many others...hahahaha

after that was farewell assembly for our principal...
it was ok...i guess..
we wasted an hour waiting for the j2s..
but it was quite fun listening to yongquan's jokes..
hes quite funny ah...
i really think he should start a podcast...he can always come up with stupid jokes...hahahaha..
then we waited another 40 mins for pw...which was short...
saw the wr,comment a bit then off we go...back home..

tomorrow, no school...
hmm....what am i going to do?
the class might be going out..but i dun tink i can..
oh..wateva..
and ya...somebody will be busy cleaning the house tomorrow
rite fiz?
wahahahahaha..

*adios*

ok...

well, finally got the overall results...
failed my econs and chem..
jus pass the rest...
i met the criteria of 2 h2 passes and 1 h1 pass...
Very bersyukur...

but somehow, when i hear other people's results, i feel like why didnt i do as well....
i mean the least i could do was to jus pass all...but i didnt and failed 2 subjects...
thats why i didnt ask anyobe their results...
i didnt want to feel ungrateful...

but that afternoon...it kind of change..
mum went into my room and casually mention that my cousin who unfortunately is in the same school did extemely better than me...
she didnt rub it in....
which i have to say was very nice of her as she used to like to compare us...
so yeah..she jus said that..
but i could sense the disappoinment in her...
but she really tried hard not to show it...

i felt quite useless then...
and someone told me that i passed and that is smthg i should be very GRATEFUL.... and she old me to remember that..
which i have to say is very true...

thats basically what have happen this past few days...
to you...
jus because u pass everything doesnt mean now u can start preaching towards me...
u forget how u were before everything?
PRETENCIOUS CREEP.........

*adios*

consistency and attitude

got back my results...
wasnt well done...
but improved from common test...
still it was not good enough for me...
but thanks to my one special teacher, i cleared it and met the criteria..
2 h2 passes and 1 h1 pass...
so insyallah i will be promoted...
but till i see it in black and white...
i wont feel too satisfied...

anyway, if i get to go J2..
i must haf these two words in my studies: CONSISTENCY and ATTITUDE
i must do my tutorials and pay attention in class...
apart from that i must also keep revising my work and not wait till the last minute...
i must always pesevere and my attitude towards my studies must be consistent..
basically i must keep mugging and not give up..
so yeah that is my new year resolutions...
i must try to get As and Bs or Cs...
i haf to..
and insyallah i will... if i work hard..
and i must work hard...
so lets all see whether im confirmed promoted or not...

*adios*

finally over...

Promos is finally OVER!!!
im happy yet apprenhensive...
im glad yet worried...
i hope i can pass yet i tink i will fail...

i want to pass and go to j2...
i dun want to waste time...
i hope that i will pass...
insyallah.

this past few days, fizah mum n sis haf been my greatest motivators and source of hope...
i am really thankful for their support and presence of being there for me...
thanks alot guys....
whoa...i sound like im giving some kind of speech...hahahaha

rite now, im going to truly enjoy my holidays before i receive my papers back next week..
watever happens, i believe that i haf given my best shot...
and i believe that everything happens for a reason...
so once again...

PROMOS IS OVER!!!!!

stress of promos

haiz....haiz...sigh.....and more sigh...

i noe this is the most depress way to start writing....bt i am feeling depress....
promos exams are here..and i really22222 want to pass...and go to j2...but somehow...i dun noe...
i dun tink i can make it but a part of me says i must make it...

chem paper today...i really studied hard not like common test but well, i guess i answered more qns dis time but then again, answering alots of questions doesnt guarantee u a pass....
u might answer alot of qns but u get all wrong...its useless....

mum says that sometimes even when we study real hard we may still fail...
because allah has already planned our life for us...
maybe failing now is bad but in the future,smthg good comes out of it...
but right now, i intend to make full use of my ability and perseverance to continue tO CONTINUE TO STUDY AND PASS MY PROMOS...
insyallah this will happen...

in this sacred month, i hope my doa dikabulkan...amin...

migraine

yesterday fiz was sick so she didnt came to school..
before pw, i felt something was wrong..
my vission was a bit blurred..
then i started to get dizzy....

i was moody all the way...
even when yongquan bastard me, i didnt bastard him back...
so unlike of me..

the gp had to do groupwork nad my member was.... who else..
ryan and wilbur knew i was really sick and didnt disturb me as much...
but she kept coming closer and talk nonsense...
i even told her i wanted pease... a sign for her to shut up...
which she didnt get...obviously...
i was so pissed that i told wilbur to tell her to shut up..
damn...my head painful and there she is making it worse....

so yeah..went home straight..
didnt go for chem...
tak bleh tahan..
reached home..vomitted
took panadol and sleep..
woke up..feel so much worse..
i even cry...
the pain was unbearable...

mum took me to the doctor..
doc say its a bad case of migraine..
haiyo.. so young like this already got migraine....
tsk...tsk...
ok.. my head is still throbbing...
pain...pain

*adios*

MARK

MARK CHAN SUX

MARK CHAN SUX

MARK CHAN SUX

MARK MAU FRIENDS....

SPECIALLLY FOR MARK...

HE WILL UNDERSTAND.......

japs pranks...

yesterday, we watched this japanese toilet pranks...
it was damn funny and disgusting a bit..
but then after awhile i thought that the pranks were really mean...
i mean, imagine that u want to shit or pee and someone pulls a prank on u...causing u to look a bit indecent...
its really not nice and very rude...kind of invading someone's privacy...

but well, its for entertainment...even though i sort of enjoyed seeing the prank being pulled off...
i really hope that such thing won't happen to me..
oh and whenever u are going to use a toilet in japan: BEWARE!!
hahahaha..

okay today is the first day of the week...so was feeling a bit of monday blues...
but everything went on smoothly...
after mt waited for fatimah n verma to finish with their class...
i kept disturbing n distracting them...which is mean but i LIKE!!!
before going home, we went to the toilet where fatimah was, how shall i say..drenched?
noo....thats too strong a word...well little bit wet cos it was raining in the toilet...
obviously done by me.....splashed water on her while she was in the cubicle...hahahahaha...

den apparently she wanted to avenge herself bt she accidentally splashed fiz with water instead...hahaha....
bewerkoof... i tink the spelling is wrong bt its suppose to mean stupid or idiot in hindi..
hehehehe

*adios*

do this together!

ok...
its been a while since i blog..
well its sooo like me...hahaha
so basically everyone is stressing up about the promos..
nowadays, im really wondering whether i can make it...
i noe i haf to..
i cant afford to waste my time...
so i must focus..
focus...focus..and focus...
n fiz...lets do this together!

*adios*

haiz..............

im tired.... very2 tired...
but i need to mug...mug...mug..
so dilah start mugging!
2 weeks of depression
2 weeks of torture
a month of apprehension
hopefully 2 months of pure happiness....
haiz......

enjoyed myself...

today... we had chem test..
had it to make us start studying fpr promos...
in a way..well it did make me study..but not very hard...hahaha
so chem test in the morning..
did noe whether i fail or pass cos i wasn bothered to mark it..
but i tink i fail...oh well..this means i got to pull up my socks!

after that we had maths...actually it was a remedial..but only me and fixah turned up...
mrs sze was pretty upset with the class..
they walked past her and no one even bothered to say they are not coming...
this was the first time that i see mrs sze VERY upset..
so me and fis was kind of uncertain..
then the lesson started and everything went fine..
it was fun actually to have mrs sze all to ourselves..
but yeah we had to share with another 2 students...
one of them pretty CUTE! hahaha...

after maths, fiz and me went to fofular...to buy stuffs for the i.c board...
it was fun and felt like old times...
hahaha
really enjoyed myself today...
oh and we met gabe!
haha..miss that bro of mine....
then we went home...
later going out soon...to break fast..kakak blanje...
free meal..i LIKE!

:)

Love ya...sis...

sorry

i tot that we are great...
we are happy...on the surface it seemed that way...
but deep down...
i didnt know that...
i tried to understand..and give my support...
somehow it was never enough...
made me feel like im the one making problems..
like i am the one who gets all the good stuffs...
see me like i have no problems...
im always the happy go lucky one...
do u really think so?
do u even try to understand me?
do i always have to be the one to change?
all i want for us is to be good and happy...
n now im wondering whether its ever going to be the same again...
im sorry...really sorry if i make u feel that way..
maybe its the way and situation where i was brought up that make me the way im..
im sorry............

more teachers' day pics

picture of the day!! sharon putting her hand around fatimah... me and aruna
me and fizah, my best friend
those going for the rally...except for the guy behind
me and kenneth again
kenneth and wei zheng trying to look 'cool'
me and kenneth who is wearing his blazerkenneth trying to look cool

i tink.

teachers's day celebration

teachers' day celebrations was a blast..

at first the concert was ok..but when the teachers start performing...

now thats when the fun starts to come in..

haha...

their performance were cool and great

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!

here are some pics we took...

more pics will be posted later..

i know it now!

despite sleeping at 2 plus yesterday nite, i wasnt a wreck i tot i would be...
hahaha... so yeah didnt really fall asleep in class..
especially chem lecture..
wat a surprise..
proud of myself though....hehehehe

so we had our gp presentation..
which was a last minute kind of thing... i did the powerpoint all by myself with the help from fizah of course...
thanks gerl!
so yea did the custom animation and all and proud to say.. i am now an officially IT literate for ppt presentation...
YES!!
i used to be so dumb in using ppt presentation but not anymore!

our presentation was abit boring cos the topic was kind of dry...
but yeah its finally done and over!!
we were supposed to have chem remedial but got cancelled...
before heading back home, we all slacked around and watch kenneth's video...
damn cute ah...

hahaha... reached home and sleep..
very tired..
oh and my sept hols is gone!!
i knew that long ago but it still hurts to noe im not going to enjoy myself..
hahahah
most of the days have classes...
but its ok!
i MUST work hard...
BUCK UP fadh!!!

oh and HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all the teachers in tpss and tpjc..
love you guys!!

*adios*

;)

i feel quite happy today...
that person say i did quite a good job..
for once i felt appreciated in that place..
thanks for me making me feel less useless...

yeah, i noe i haf not been updating regulary..
sorry been very busy..
TEACHERS' DAY IS COMING...
i want to go back tpss but not sure whether i can make...
well hope i can and cant wait to see all my frens..
dat is, if im going back...

kk... i really need to do my presentation

*adios*

maths remedial...

hellloooo!!!!
i noe its been awhile since i last blogged...
n im pretty sure fizah has a lot of comments abt that...hahaha

anyway, been busy with pw and other kind of projects..
so yeah it has been quite hectic..

still trying to get started on my revision and all..
i cant believe promos in a few weeks time...
so dilah...jiayou!
and the rest too...
we all can do it..

so today, again went for maths remedial...
actually wanted to skip it but felt guilty...
both wilbur and me was indecisive..
den mark chan says hes going..
so i tot well ok...jus go..
wilbur finally decided not go...

we did graphing techniques...
and all 3 hrs... i had to endure mark's stupid jokes and racist comments..
but it was funny...sometimes..
n wenever he makes a racist comments i will jus ignore him...
then he will say: eh laugh ah..
n i told him if he says something stupid i will jus shut him out or shut him up..

with mark, i had to endure being beaten and hear him cursing CB..
whereas with wilbur i have to hear him saying bastard all the time...and keep saying whether i paisey or not..or whether it matters or not..

so yeah, as u can see, my maths remedial is full of vulgarities..hahaha
funny at times....
so im wondering how it will be if both of them come together next week...
i have a bad feeling...........

hahaha...

*adios*

i dislike you

i feel so useless at times...
i mean.. i tried my best..
n dats all i can come up with...
that person dun haf the right to put me down like dat...
if he or she wants the best then go do it urself..
we are suppose to support each other but u're such an *&%^%$^&...

im hurt... very very hurt
but u know wat..i am not going to give a damn..
there are others who support me and dun jus put me down like dat...
thanks to the people out there...
i really appreciate u guys...

oh and hafidz please dun cover ur mouth wen answering questions...
WAHAHAHAHAHA....

*adios*

no title...

ok....jus reached home from sch..
had economics test..
which i tink i screw up...
haiz... i seriously suck at econs..
oh watever, its done and over...
no use crying over spilt milk...

ok lets talk about some happy stuffs..
hmm let me see...
hmmm....
hmmm....
ummm...
ummmm......
wait a min...i dun haf any happy stuffs...
hahahaha...

actually nolah...
yesterday i had this maths learning thingy for weak students like me...
so me and wilbur went and it was ok...
very tiring becos the qns keep repeating...
hahaha.. wilbur was irritated and he keep using vulgarities...
hahaha..
and the teacher sucks..
explain like he himself not sure...
but hey... an achievement, i completed the qns and know why the solution is like dat...
so yeah! Keep it ah dilah!!!!

*adios*

I CAN DO IT!!

ok... i give up..
its not dat i didnt want to update my blog or i was too lazy..... but it is becos this stupid thing just wont upload my pics..
so yea it turns me off so i ended up not updating...
but i am blogging rite now cos i really need to express myself or i will explode...

promos in a few weeks time...
and i kind of starting to study..
i am a last minute kind of person but i realised that in jc, there is no such thing as last minute...
u got to study, study and study only then will u make it...
so im kind of starting to study right now...
but sometimes i feel that i am not doing enough...
or i plan to study but end up not doing becos im busy studying for tests which in my opinion should not be having rite now..
we should be focusing more on the promos...

and i SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY need help with my studies...
i always have problems in my studies and am not doing well...
so can somebody help me.?
PLEASEEEEEEE.......................................

pressured
tired
choked up
dats how i feel...

FADHILAH MUST STUDY STUDY!!!!!!!
I CAN DO THIS!!
YES I CAN!
ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!!!
MUST GET 2H2 AND 1 H1 PASSES!!!!!
I WILL DO IT!!!
I CAN DO IT!!!
I MUST DO IT!!!
YEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*adios*

bbq pics...

more pics as promised...

bbq

more pics coming up...





yesterday, the class had bbq at pasir ris park..
went with fatimah and she was VERY late..
so when she came she was apologising profusely..

after praying, we rushed to the pit..
when we reached, aruna, mark,kiwi,daphne,ryan,wilbur,mj,yongquan, pei xuan,ms lim,ms chua and sharon were already there...
reached there, talk and joke with them..
and we ate, though i didnt eat much...cos i was kinda full...
and we took quite a number of pics...

and on the way back, ms chua sent us to pasir ris mrt..
saw her husband... nice guy... hahaha
anyway thanks for the ride once again..