finally over...

Promos is finally OVER!!!
im happy yet apprenhensive...
im glad yet worried...
i hope i can pass yet i tink i will fail...

i want to pass and go to j2...
i dun want to waste time...
i hope that i will pass...
insyallah.

this past few days, fizah mum n sis haf been my greatest motivators and source of hope...
i am really thankful for their support and presence of being there for me...
thanks alot guys....
whoa...i sound like im giving some kind of speech...hahahaha

rite now, im going to truly enjoy my holidays before i receive my papers back next week..
watever happens, i believe that i haf given my best shot...
and i believe that everything happens for a reason...
so once again...

PROMOS IS OVER!!!!!

stress of promos

haiz....haiz...sigh.....and more sigh...

i noe this is the most depress way to start writing....bt i am feeling depress....
promos exams are here..and i really22222 want to pass...and go to j2...but somehow...i dun noe...
i dun tink i can make it but a part of me says i must make it...

chem paper today...i really studied hard not like common test but well, i guess i answered more qns dis time but then again, answering alots of questions doesnt guarantee u a pass....
u might answer alot of qns but u get all wrong...its useless....

mum says that sometimes even when we study real hard we may still fail...
because allah has already planned our life for us...
maybe failing now is bad but in the future,smthg good comes out of it...
but right now, i intend to make full use of my ability and perseverance to continue tO CONTINUE TO STUDY AND PASS MY PROMOS...
insyallah this will happen...

in this sacred month, i hope my doa dikabulkan...amin...

migraine

yesterday fiz was sick so she didnt came to school..
before pw, i felt something was wrong..
my vission was a bit blurred..
then i started to get dizzy....

i was moody all the way...
even when yongquan bastard me, i didnt bastard him back...
so unlike of me..

the gp had to do groupwork nad my member was.... who else..
ryan and wilbur knew i was really sick and didnt disturb me as much...
but she kept coming closer and talk nonsense...
i even told her i wanted pease... a sign for her to shut up...
which she didnt get...obviously...
i was so pissed that i told wilbur to tell her to shut up..
damn...my head painful and there she is making it worse....

so yeah..went home straight..
didnt go for chem...
tak bleh tahan..
reached home..vomitted
took panadol and sleep..
woke up..feel so much worse..
i even cry...
the pain was unbearable...

mum took me to the doctor..
doc say its a bad case of migraine..
haiyo.. so young like this already got migraine....
tsk...tsk...
ok.. my head is still throbbing...
pain...pain

*adios*

MARK

MARK CHAN SUX

MARK CHAN SUX

MARK CHAN SUX

MARK MAU FRIENDS....

SPECIALLLY FOR MARK...

HE WILL UNDERSTAND.......

japs pranks...

yesterday, we watched this japanese toilet pranks...
it was damn funny and disgusting a bit..
but then after awhile i thought that the pranks were really mean...
i mean, imagine that u want to shit or pee and someone pulls a prank on u...causing u to look a bit indecent...
its really not nice and very rude...kind of invading someone's privacy...

but well, its for entertainment...even though i sort of enjoyed seeing the prank being pulled off...
i really hope that such thing won't happen to me..
oh and whenever u are going to use a toilet in japan: BEWARE!!
hahahaha..

okay today is the first day of the week...so was feeling a bit of monday blues...
but everything went on smoothly...
after mt waited for fatimah n verma to finish with their class...
i kept disturbing n distracting them...which is mean but i LIKE!!!
before going home, we went to the toilet where fatimah was, how shall i say..drenched?
noo....thats too strong a word...well little bit wet cos it was raining in the toilet...
obviously done by me.....splashed water on her while she was in the cubicle...hahahahaha...

den apparently she wanted to avenge herself bt she accidentally splashed fiz with water instead...hahaha....
bewerkoof... i tink the spelling is wrong bt its suppose to mean stupid or idiot in hindi..
hehehehe

*adios*

do this together!

ok...
its been a while since i blog..
well its sooo like me...hahaha
so basically everyone is stressing up about the promos..
nowadays, im really wondering whether i can make it...
i noe i haf to..
i cant afford to waste my time...
so i must focus..
focus...focus..and focus...
n fiz...lets do this together!

*adios*

haiz..............

im tired.... very2 tired...
but i need to mug...mug...mug..
so dilah start mugging!
2 weeks of depression
2 weeks of torture
a month of apprehension
hopefully 2 months of pure happiness....
haiz......

enjoyed myself...

today... we had chem test..
had it to make us start studying fpr promos...
in a way..well it did make me study..but not very hard...hahaha
so chem test in the morning..
did noe whether i fail or pass cos i wasn bothered to mark it..
but i tink i fail...oh well..this means i got to pull up my socks!

after that we had maths...actually it was a remedial..but only me and fixah turned up...
mrs sze was pretty upset with the class..
they walked past her and no one even bothered to say they are not coming...
this was the first time that i see mrs sze VERY upset..
so me and fis was kind of uncertain..
then the lesson started and everything went fine..
it was fun actually to have mrs sze all to ourselves..
but yeah we had to share with another 2 students...
one of them pretty CUTE! hahaha...

after maths, fiz and me went to fofular...to buy stuffs for the i.c board...
it was fun and felt like old times...
hahaha
really enjoyed myself today...
oh and we met gabe!
haha..miss that bro of mine....
then we went home...
later going out soon...to break fast..kakak blanje...
free meal..i LIKE!

:)

Love ya...sis...

sorry

i tot that we are great...
we are happy...on the surface it seemed that way...
but deep down...
i didnt know that...
i tried to understand..and give my support...
somehow it was never enough...
made me feel like im the one making problems..
like i am the one who gets all the good stuffs...
see me like i have no problems...
im always the happy go lucky one...
do u really think so?
do u even try to understand me?
do i always have to be the one to change?
all i want for us is to be good and happy...
n now im wondering whether its ever going to be the same again...
im sorry...really sorry if i make u feel that way..
maybe its the way and situation where i was brought up that make me the way im..
im sorry............

more teachers' day pics

picture of the day!! sharon putting her hand around fatimah... me and aruna
me and fizah, my best friend
those going for the rally...except for the guy behind
me and kenneth again
kenneth and wei zheng trying to look 'cool'
me and kenneth who is wearing his blazerkenneth trying to look cool

i tink.

teachers's day celebration

teachers' day celebrations was a blast..

at first the concert was ok..but when the teachers start performing...

now thats when the fun starts to come in..

haha...

their performance were cool and great

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!

here are some pics we took...

more pics will be posted later..

i know it now!

despite sleeping at 2 plus yesterday nite, i wasnt a wreck i tot i would be...
hahaha... so yeah didnt really fall asleep in class..
especially chem lecture..
wat a surprise..
proud of myself though....hehehehe

so we had our gp presentation..
which was a last minute kind of thing... i did the powerpoint all by myself with the help from fizah of course...
thanks gerl!
so yea did the custom animation and all and proud to say.. i am now an officially IT literate for ppt presentation...
YES!!
i used to be so dumb in using ppt presentation but not anymore!

our presentation was abit boring cos the topic was kind of dry...
but yeah its finally done and over!!
we were supposed to have chem remedial but got cancelled...
before heading back home, we all slacked around and watch kenneth's video...
damn cute ah...

hahaha... reached home and sleep..
very tired..
oh and my sept hols is gone!!
i knew that long ago but it still hurts to noe im not going to enjoy myself..
hahahah
most of the days have classes...
but its ok!
i MUST work hard...
BUCK UP fadh!!!

oh and HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all the teachers in tpss and tpjc..
love you guys!!

*adios*

;)

i feel quite happy today...
that person say i did quite a good job..
for once i felt appreciated in that place..
thanks for me making me feel less useless...

yeah, i noe i haf not been updating regulary..
sorry been very busy..
TEACHERS' DAY IS COMING...
i want to go back tpss but not sure whether i can make...
well hope i can and cant wait to see all my frens..
dat is, if im going back...

kk... i really need to do my presentation

*adios*

maths remedial...

hellloooo!!!!
i noe its been awhile since i last blogged...
n im pretty sure fizah has a lot of comments abt that...hahaha

anyway, been busy with pw and other kind of projects..
so yeah it has been quite hectic..

still trying to get started on my revision and all..
i cant believe promos in a few weeks time...
so dilah...jiayou!
and the rest too...
we all can do it..

so today, again went for maths remedial...
actually wanted to skip it but felt guilty...
both wilbur and me was indecisive..
den mark chan says hes going..
so i tot well ok...jus go..
wilbur finally decided not go...

we did graphing techniques...
and all 3 hrs... i had to endure mark's stupid jokes and racist comments..
but it was funny...sometimes..
n wenever he makes a racist comments i will jus ignore him...
then he will say: eh laugh ah..
n i told him if he says something stupid i will jus shut him out or shut him up..

with mark, i had to endure being beaten and hear him cursing CB..
whereas with wilbur i have to hear him saying bastard all the time...and keep saying whether i paisey or not..or whether it matters or not..

so yeah, as u can see, my maths remedial is full of vulgarities..hahaha
funny at times....
so im wondering how it will be if both of them come together next week...
i have a bad feeling...........

hahaha...

*adios*

i dislike you

i feel so useless at times...
i mean.. i tried my best..
n dats all i can come up with...
that person dun haf the right to put me down like dat...
if he or she wants the best then go do it urself..
we are suppose to support each other but u're such an *&%^%$^&...

im hurt... very very hurt
but u know wat..i am not going to give a damn..
there are others who support me and dun jus put me down like dat...
thanks to the people out there...
i really appreciate u guys...

oh and hafidz please dun cover ur mouth wen answering questions...
WAHAHAHAHAHA....

*adios*

no title...

ok....jus reached home from sch..
had economics test..
which i tink i screw up...
haiz... i seriously suck at econs..
oh watever, its done and over...
no use crying over spilt milk...

ok lets talk about some happy stuffs..
hmm let me see...
hmmm....
hmmm....
ummm...
ummmm......
wait a min...i dun haf any happy stuffs...
hahahaha...

actually nolah...
yesterday i had this maths learning thingy for weak students like me...
so me and wilbur went and it was ok...
very tiring becos the qns keep repeating...
hahaha.. wilbur was irritated and he keep using vulgarities...
hahaha..
and the teacher sucks..
explain like he himself not sure...
but hey... an achievement, i completed the qns and know why the solution is like dat...
so yeah! Keep it ah dilah!!!!

*adios*

I CAN DO IT!!

ok... i give up..
its not dat i didnt want to update my blog or i was too lazy..... but it is becos this stupid thing just wont upload my pics..
so yea it turns me off so i ended up not updating...
but i am blogging rite now cos i really need to express myself or i will explode...

promos in a few weeks time...
and i kind of starting to study..
i am a last minute kind of person but i realised that in jc, there is no such thing as last minute...
u got to study, study and study only then will u make it...
so im kind of starting to study right now...
but sometimes i feel that i am not doing enough...
or i plan to study but end up not doing becos im busy studying for tests which in my opinion should not be having rite now..
we should be focusing more on the promos...

and i SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY need help with my studies...
i always have problems in my studies and am not doing well...
so can somebody help me.?
PLEASEEEEEEE.......................................

pressured
tired
choked up
dats how i feel...

FADHILAH MUST STUDY STUDY!!!!!!!
I CAN DO THIS!!
YES I CAN!
ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!!!
MUST GET 2H2 AND 1 H1 PASSES!!!!!
I WILL DO IT!!!
I CAN DO IT!!!
I MUST DO IT!!!
YEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*adios*

bbq pics...

more pics as promised...

bbq

more pics coming up...





yesterday, the class had bbq at pasir ris park..
went with fatimah and she was VERY late..
so when she came she was apologising profusely..

after praying, we rushed to the pit..
when we reached, aruna, mark,kiwi,daphne,ryan,wilbur,mj,yongquan, pei xuan,ms lim,ms chua and sharon were already there...
reached there, talk and joke with them..
and we ate, though i didnt eat much...cos i was kinda full...
and we took quite a number of pics...

and on the way back, ms chua sent us to pasir ris mrt..
saw her husband... nice guy... hahaha
anyway thanks for the ride once again..