mistakes

sometimes, the reason we argue is not even because of me...
it all about her..
yeah, i know shes made some mistakes..
i know u want to talk..
but wat can i do...
i cannot give u anything..not even an assurance..
because the truth is my life is not about solving other's people problem...

for goodness sake im going to be 17..
im suppose to enjoy life right...not come up with something to solve problems
yeah im mature now..at 17 i should be learning about life mistakes..
but why, why does she worry that i will make that same mistakes..
i learnt from her mistakes..
i have seen what those mistakes have done...

everyday, i promise myself taht i will never be like her...
never hurt the ones i love..
maybe dats y i feel different...

*adios*

SOMEBODY SAVE ME!

today, in the morning went out to do some math hwk..
then went to lib to get some books...
then met up wif sis and we jalan2 abit..gt some vcds and went home
at night went jogging and watched 2 movies...

gosh..my sentence are so boring..
i feel like im writing a primary school compo..
so yeah..basically..im VERY bored...
so bored that i sometimes i cant sleep..
probably due to lack of activities...
haiz....i tink school isnt such a bad idea after all....
maybe the fun part and ur friends are the best part of school..
acadmically...i prefer to skip it hahaha...

ok...i tink im talking crap...cos im bored...
hmm...and one tree hill is running out of videos..
so i dun frequent utube as much...
OH! SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!

*adios*

yesterday..was another fulfilled day...

there was only one word to describe yesterday: FUN!
hahahaha..met up wif fizah and adilah...
went to ramenten and had lunch..
dilah and fizah kind of ordered to much sushi and we also had the set meal...
so was very very kenyang...

then jalan2 at junction 8.
around 6 plus we went home...
i took the bus cos it leads straight to the bus stop near home...
although the journey was long.. bt i kind of like riding the bus...
boleh khayal...
hahaha
fiz hates riding buses..
which is a bit weird...so she took the mrt home...
hahahah...

rite now im bored...
so i guess utube will be my destination!

*adios*

update again...

well...its been awhile since i updated...
not that i didnt want..mind you...
but i had nothing to talk abt..
life has been boring enough and i didnt want to put the boring details in here...
all i have done this week is doing the interact board..and slacking round at any fast food restaurant with fizah..
now that is fun cause we talked crap and laugh and all..hahaha

but then when i get home..i got bored and all i ever do now is go to utube watch anything that is worth watching...
mostly is my favourite drama ONE TREE HILL..
hahaha..
man..chad micheal murray is DAMN HOT!! ahahaha
haiz...its just so nice to feast your eyes on him...
well there is this one episode where there is a quote and i really2 like it..
Quote:

at this moment, there are six million, four hundred and seventy million,

eight hundred and eighteen thousand,six hundred and seventy one people in the world.

some are running scared.

some are coming home.

some tell lies to make it through the day.

others are just now facing the truth.

some are evil men, at war with good.

and some are good, struggling with evil.

six billion people in the world.

six billion souls.

but sometimes,

all you need is one.

this is a nice quote..
and i kind of believe in it..
no matter what happens
no matter what people do or say to you..
what we need is just someone who listens and give a shoulder for us to cry on..
there are others who are lucky..they have got more than 1 person for them to depend on..
i believe im lucky...cause i have the greatest family and friends in the world..
im really proud to have them in my life..
there are times when i wish these same people will leave me alone..
but i know if that were to happen, i dont think i can survive..
i am what i am because of the people around me..
life is never perfect and it will never be...
but i know that come what may..there will always be people to support me..
and i thank these very souls who have been there for me..
thank u soo much..

wah..i suddenly feel very philosophical...
hahahaa...

*adios*

%^%&%$@#%&

ok...today is going to be a f***ed up day....

OP..HAIYO..

today was the day...
the day for OP...
went to sch at 10...
met with the rest and we rehearsed here and there..
then waited until 3 for our turn which was freaking long..
then our presentation..
for me the presentation was ok...
then came the Q n A and that destryed everything..

re - enactment:

Examiner 1: ok, fadhilah...wat can u do to encourage these people to go for the seminars?

Me: umm... (stood there like an idiot for 2 mins)..sorry..umm

Examiner 2: wat other measures that can u take?

Me:(in my head) shit.. wat a qn..coudnt she ask smthg else..f***...wat to say?! wats dat thing we say wen people get smthg?? damn wat it is???(out loud) oh.. to encourage people they will get smthg if they come, like free sample of cloth bags

Examiner 1: ok, why then pri 1, i mean they are young...

Me: well, singapore's education is fast paced.. at pri 1 they are learning eng, math and science..so tehy also learn abt the 3Rs. Reduce, Reuse and Recycle.. so this can be incorporated by making it simple enough for them to understand..

Examiner 1: Ok.. next younquan...

GONE!!! GG!!

I totally screwed up my Q n A...

like shit ah...

haiz.. so disappointed...

then to celebrate our post pw..

the whole grp went to watch movie..

so difficult to choose the movie...

grudge 2 and the guardian - i watched..

daph wanted to watch a gd year..

aruna and yq wanted to watch the covenant

wilbur nt even sure wanted to watch any movies...

tossed a coin and aruna won...

so covenant it is...

den wilbur said watching it tmrw...

so he didnt want to go wif us...

after much arguing..

we finally.. i really mean finally.. we decided to watch step up...

the movie was quite nice actually... nice dance move...

really enjoyed it...

to whoever who likes to watch dance movie..better catch this one!

we walked around and finally went home..

so tired...tmrw gonna be busy helping mum...

mak is coming over..

yeah!

now im feeling better..

oh well.. op is over...watever happen has happened...

never cry over spilled milk...

*adios*

Ok!

for the start of the week.. it was actually going great..
met fizah and we hang out together...
it was nice after wat happened yesternight...
felt like everything back to ok again...
then we had trouble trying to figure out wat movie to watch..

in the end we watched grudge 2..
which i haf to say was a waste of time...
it was kind of complicated and i only realise what the whole movie was about in the end..
and the scary part is jus shocking...not fun at all... didnt really scared me...
haiyo..they should come up with a better movie...

gt to do pw tmrw...kind of lazy but no choice...
hahah
hope you people haf fun jalan raye bsok...

*adios*

sad day...

Everything was ok....
until i pisses someone off..
actually, it was never my intention..
i was upset as well...
i mean i didnt have a choice...
if i didnt go, i will be left behind and to change the date to wed, means that i have only that wed to practice...
which is ridiculous since i kinda sucked...

bt the treatment that i got was painful..
i understand her anger...disappoinment..but i felt those too...
she could have said smthg consoling while i was apologising profusely...
but no...msg ignored..
but there was a msg...which i felt was nice of her.. but still i could sense her dissatisfaction..
it always make me feel im always the one in the wrong..
what now?
haiz....
i hope things will be alrite..
dun becos of small issues..things change..
i hate to argue with her..
i really do..

*hepless*

UPdate!

Helloooo!!!!hahaha..its been a while since i updated this thing...
wait... its been a loooonnnggg time...hahaa..maklumlah hari raya...so busy keluar...
well things have been okay.. i guess.. nothing that have gotten me so upset or happy...
but things are okay...jus finished a level mt paper last friday..
its was ok i guess.. but then i dont want to put too much high hopes
becos life has a way of surprising you...

den today, in late morning went to sofi's house to jalan raye..t
here were only 3 of us... fiza,sofi and me..pathetic? ya.. a bit...
hahahah after that we went to ms rafidah's house..
it was nice... i have always loved her house...so we ate and talked and laughed...
it was like old times...den to accompany dear fizah..
we took taxi and send her to her aunt's house before we stopped at bedok interchange..
well, actually she sent us since she paid for the ride...hahahaha
and fiz... i had to tambah only 10 cents...kwangz....

and now im waiting for some family members to come...
which is starting to piss me off...telefon siang2 pastu ckp nk datang
but tk sampai2...sometimes i feel like raye ni is kind of a waste of time...
i mean raye is wen kite bermaafan but there will always be people who piss u off and make u angry...
so in the end actually..u minta maaf and then make mistakes..so as u can see..its neverending..
kk.. now i gtg.. dorang da sampai..
and yeah.. fiz..i updated! :)

*adios*